Thursday, November 30, 2006
Yeah got my prom wear already! Thanks jie again. Jie shopped with me yesterday for the whole day to get my prom wear. Not only that, she actually paid for them and said that they were my next year's birthday and X'mas present. THANK YOU! But they are really too expensive... My mum said that she must pay jie back but jie said that it's ok... I also dont know what to do. In any case, I am still happy that I have got my prom wear. It is really very nice and fashionable. Love it :) (It is teh first two pictures with a olive green jacket and a white tee inside). As for the last two pictures, I was just taking them for fun. Actually the pink V neck is also part of what jie gave me. She said that the tee was very nice so cant resist. Thank you again. *0*/ However, amongst yesterday's happy mood, I was quite sad about one thing. THE SHOPKEEPER SAID THAT I LOOKED LIKE A 21-YEAR-OLD!!! haix... I know I do look older then I am but I didnt expect that old though. No wonder I am an Old Soul (if you didnt read my ld blog, you might not know this). Sad case.
By the way, I have just received a letter from the RSAF. Months ago, they sent me a letter telling me to go for a test to see whether I qualify to be a RSAF people or not. Although there wasnt any results as they have promised, not even a "thank you for your participation" letter, they sent another letter yesterday saying that I am invited to go down on 9th Dec to attend a dont-know-what talk. Heehee. Too bad. I would have went back to HK by then. So I am supposed to tell them that I cant go or something. Actually, I really wondered why they actually contacted me in the first place. I am not saying this due to lack of self-confidence but based on facts. Firstly, I am not tall (Shouldnt pilots be tall, suave and handsome like those in TV shows adn documentaries?). Secondly, I am not well-built. (I think pilots must have the physique to withstand the air pressure difference, the swirvelling of the plane and stuff, right?) Thirdly, I am not borned to be one in the first place. (Honestly, I am one who will get travel sickness quite often although air travel sickness wasnt that common for me. Also, my eyesight still sucks.) So I think the government have chose the wrong candidate this time round. I might be more suited to be a cleaner or calculater in the army though. I am not praising myself but I can really clean well, maybe because I am Virgo? I didnt like planes also. The only thing that attracts me from RSAF is the $8000 basic pay. (Ok, I am just being practical and realistic).
Oh my god, I realised that this could be the longest post I have ever wrote. The nest thing I am going to talk about is today's incident. Today, 30th November is my mum's birthday! But we didnt celebrate... Didnt even go out to have dinner. No present. No dinner. No birthday cake. No birthday song. Nothing. Just another normal day. Haix.. Felt so guilty actually. Not that we didnt want to celebrate but my mum didnt want. We booked buffet dinner tonight and just when we were changing to go out, my mum said shes not going out cos she needed to make dumplings. Haix... No mood.. So we just packet food home to eat. Can sense that my mum is unhappy. SO in the end, just now I overheard my mum's conversation with my aunt in HK. My mum was upset that we have all forgotten her birthday. Yes, I admit that I really forgot that today was my mum's birthday until my dad msged me in the morning. I am not finding excuses for my negligence but I really didnt feel well the whole day cos I didnt sleep well yesterday night. So I didnt draw any cards or prepared any present today. As a result, my mum was sad because of that. What is done cant be undone. I also dont know what to do.
Before I sign off, I have one thing to say. I HAVE INSOMNIA!!! ARGHHH... This is difficult. I have been having it since JC. But now that even A lvls is over, I am still suffering from it. ARGHHH... It is so painful... yesterday after the trip to orchard I thought it would be a insomnia-less night but NO! I stayed fully awake until 3! Not even abit of sleepyness. Finally around 4 I managed to take a short nap then I woke up at 8. Wanted to go back to sleep but I just cant. Headache the whole day. In the end, I took my sister's advice to exercise. So I skipped and did push ups. Sweat alot. Hope tonight can sleep if not I would have to see the doctor for sleeping pills and hope that he wouldnt misunderstand that I want to commit suicide because I wouldnt do such stupid things.
Tuesday, November 28, 2006
A brand new start
Hmmm... This is a new start. For what? I also dont know. Jst feel like starting afresh. Maybe I have realised something- One still have to be responsible for what he/she writes in his/her blog. So this blog will not make the same mistake that the old blog did.Since this is a new blog and a new start, let me share something about my day today. As usual, I slept until 11 plus when my tutor and Jess msged me. The former said that she will call and she did, told me a few things about her plan about my prom cloth. Then Jess said that she was interviewing for her job. Later, I waited for the delivery to come (some stuff that my parents used for work). At the same time, I was mopping floor, cooking lunch and msging Jess cos she was too bored as she had to wait until 3 for another interview. In the end she didnt go for the second one. I went to accompany her as she wait for another one at 6. In the end, she said that she was waiting for her family for dinner instead of interview but I still accompany her until 6. Heard that her parents were treating her relatives a meal so she have to join them. She kind of mentioned that I can join them (if I didnt hear wrongly) but I thought that it was their family gathering so I didnt stay. If it was just their parents, I wouldnt mind cos her parents were quite nice and easygoing. Not that I am very old or what but I was quite shocked that Jess still like to drink Yakult (Not teasing though, just shocked).
So ya thats about it today. But from today onwards, I have a new plan - I am trying to gain weight. Hmmm... ya.. I am stupid. I have always been like that. Maybe I am Virgo so I really care what people around me say about me. True, I am gainign weight cos people have been saying that I am thin and stuff.
Arghh... stupid me...